It’s been a tough few weeks for me, which is why I haven’t written this blog for a number of weeks. Finding out I had to have another operation, still not knowing if I need to have chemo (interesting stat only approximately 34%* of women diagnosed with breast cancer have chemo). So all in all, my mind has only been seeing the bad, the horrible and the unjust around me, so the other day I decided that I needed to find ways to fight these feelings.
The results, I’ve re-started my gratitude diary. If you have never done this I would really recommend it as it really, really helps in seeing the things to be grateful for. It’s also an easy thing to do, at the end of each day you write down 3 things that you are grateful for. They don’t have to be big things – clean sheets; 5 minutes sitting outside having a cup of tea, watching your dog run around the back yard (all things from my diary). I keep a little note book & pen beside my bed and do this. The big thing is not to repeat a gratitude for a month – by the end of the month you can realise that you have a lot to be grateful for.
The other thing I did was find a “happy” music play list on YouTube – it’s all instrumental music but it has the “boppy” feel which makes me feel good. I’m also putting together a Delia Feel Good playlist of music that I like (lots of 80’s and dance music) for those days a need to feel better.
I also notice that if the sun is out and I have blue skies to look at, I am much happier. The Australian in me just loves it and I do realise how much I miss that consistency of blue skies and sunshine. So today I’m celebrating 3 days in a row of blue skies and sunshine.
My biggest hurdle in this is trying to find the good in the world – of hearing about the wonderful things that people do out in the greater world. I don’t watch TV news anymore because it is just too depressing for me, and I tend only to do headlines on news web pages with the occasional looking further because I just find the way we report news so blah! I will admit it is getting better but we still seem to hear more about the “bad” in the world rather than the “good”.
If you have any ideas I would love to hear them.
Until next time.
* 34% of patients diagnosed with breast cancer have chemotherapy as part of their primary cancer treatment.
https://www.cancerresearchuk.org/health-professional/cancer-statistics/statistics-by-cancer-type/breast-cancer#heading-Five accessed June 2019